#art tag #are you fucking kidding me
"My mind is like a racing engine, tearing itself to pieces because it is not connected up with the work for which it was built."
"I may be on the side of the angels, but don't think for one second that I am one of them."
"It is the most distressing affliction to have a sentimental heart and a skeptical mind."
"I am who I am and I am who I was and I am who I will always be."
(Sometimes I make stuff, and it can generally be found under "tagged/sam makes things")
Anonymous asked: Hey, about your rape story. I think you should talk to someone experienced in these kinds of things. Maybe a therapist or counselor or maybe you can find a blog on here for advice on abusive relationships. I just know that abusive relationships can be very tricky and manipulative and it can be hard to know what's going on from the inside of one, you know what I mean? But in the end I would say just do whatever makes you comfortable.
Yeah, I’m starting to feel that way as well. I remember how hard it was for me to see it last time I was in an abusive relationship, but part of me feels like I’d see the signs if I was in one again, so it gets confusing. I don’t feel like I’m being manipulated (nor do I feel like the guy is capable of manipulating me, either from a moral or intellectual standpoint), but I suppose that’s kind of the point of being manipulated.
I know I feel safe for the first time in a very long time, so I’m hoping that’s a good sign. But discussing this with a professional is something I know I should probably do, and
if I have time I’ll probably be seeking out one of the campus counselors soon.
my theater professor took me aside during our showcase rehearsal, put his arm around me briefly, and proceeded to give me a (not entirely new) lecture about how i demure on stage and how he will not let me be that way, shyness be damned, and how i need to go for it and such, and how i’m losing casting opportunities by being like this (which i’ve known), and how he expects me to come back next semester and have all of this down and be beating out seniors for lead roles because i’m good, and he doesn’t care if he has to piss me off/get me angry with him in order for it to happen as long as it does
then we ran the showcase
afterwards he came up to me, giving me some sort of pleased look, not saying a word, and just kissed the top of my head, then told me that was just the tip of the iceberg as far as my abilities as an actor are concerned
tldr: i’m dead and it’s this fucking theater program’s fault@7 hours ago with 1 note